PMS?

15th post.

PMS for pre menstrual syndrome, or PMS for post midyears sadness??

Hi guysss. Almost all the midyears results have been given back, and i can't say I'm happy or sad... Hmm, well, at least i didn't fail :) Thank God for that.

Anyway, the past week or so has been damn horrible for me. Cant even tell if it's plain over thinking or it's actually damned real. I don't like this one bit. JC really makes me feel so lonesome and companionless even with so many people around... Of course i'm thankful for my friends, but recently i just feel like... maybe i don't really have anyone who truly cares about me.

Well okay, enough of the negativity. On the bright side, i think I'm finally going to get rid of that cui-max laptop of mine. GUYS PLEASE DO NOT EVER BUY DELL LAPTOPS. Hope to get a new one soon, cause this burden PW is bugging me to complete it every single day -_-. Okay fine, I'm actually supposed to do my EOM now but i really have no more ideas to generate yo. :( PW KILLS BRAIN CELLS.

After spending the day "detached from the world", or so some classmate said, i feel like I'm actually fine being alone in school. Of course i feel miserable and lonely and all, but at least it's just myself, i don't have to handle any questions. Call me selfish, but i don't really like to tell people my stuff, but i like to hear people tell me their stuff.

Haven't been okay with being alone before, especially in secondary school. So this is rather new for me i guess? But well, being alone saves people from the burden i impose on them, so all's good.

Have been thinking much lately about bucking up for my academics, yet wanting to give up jc life so bad. SIGH. Well, i guess since i took this road i should just push on huh? Need to catch up on my lectures and tutorials that are long overdue (since dance concert finished).

Only thing that keeps me going is the fact that i still have my boy and my girls with me. Thanks all of you <3 I know i haven't been very happy of late, but i will be better soon! Don't worry so much! :)

One last thing - do i really look very cheerful and positive, as if nothing can bring me down?

Cause, obviously, that's far from true. Yet people keep telling me that.

I guess that's one good thing about me?