Invisible?

16th post.

Invisible. Yeah, that's what I've been feeling these days. No better word to describe it.

Amidst all the negativity, i found that i actually do have a friend that cares about me. You know who you are. I wanna thank you a lot for giving me such encouraging words and i teared looking at the mail you sent. I'm truly touched and so glad i have a friend like you. I may not be the best at expressing myself and all, but just... Thanks :) At least i know someone is there.

Then again, maybe everyone's been there all along, just that I'm to preoccupied about myself and my problems and how i think that the world will be better without me around that... i chose not to believe it anymore.

Well, only time will tell.

Y'know, I've been thinking lately about the term "best friend". I really miss those days when i actually had a best friend. Just stick around all day and mess with each other and laugh like crazy, and we didn't need to worry if we would offend each other because, well we know we're just kidding. And then when rough times hit, you could share anything and everything with her and sometimes try to figure out ways to solve them together.

Yeah, i miss that...

For now, although i don't have a "best friend", i do have my girls, who i know will always be there for me and i love them. I have my boy, who sometimes can be my best friend but y'know, what happens when you have boyfriend problems?

Once, when my emotions hit rock bottom, i'd feel so depressed about myself just because everyone has a best friend except me. But i guess mine will soon appear in my life and accompany throughout the rest of my life.

I can wish, right?