4th post.
Yo people. Wanted to blog a few days ago when the results came out but haven't got on the com yet :(
So here i am! :D Currently @ wb's house and we have officially submitted our JAE choices!!! :D
Yep, so this is it! Kinda excited yet at the same time afraid of what the future holds.... yknow?
Haha yep, we're getting new school bags btw, and hopefully it will arrive soon :)
Guess we are officially going our separate ways in life alr, huh? So quick right, how time passes so fast really scares the heck outta me... Imagine, four years later and we're 21 alr, holding our key to freedom and to the rest of our lives.... Gosh, i can't say i'm ready for that alr... :(
Recently i also realised.... i actually only have the few friends that are pretty close. I only have one clique and those four friends to rely on and.... Now we're probably not even going to the same school and all. Sigh, i feel really insignificant, to any of my friends actually. I mean, they all have their other friends and i'm probably only considered "one of them" among their many other friends... And to be honest, i hate this feeling. I used to be over-possessive over my so-called "best friend" 'cause i would put ALL of my energy and attention onto her and her only, and yknow, when someone important to you doesn't treat you the same way as you would expect them to, you get disappointed - and that is, for me, most of the time.
Well, i've come to learn that that should not be the way and you should give without much expectation at all so that life is much easier for all parties. But at this important juncture in life, i suddenly feel a surge of sadness and pity cause i don't have any good friends i can share the rest of my life with, honestly. Perhaps it's the way i treat people? But no matter what, i know i treat everybody with all of my heart and soul, and when i care, i really do care. And of course, when i don't, i really don't give a shit.
So yeah... to the four of you, i just wanna let you guys know that i really do appreciate you in my life, although there are times that we really cannot stand each other or anything, i hope you guys still know that i will be here for you no matter what and my arms and ears are always open for ya! :) I really do hope we can be friends for life and like be each other's mates for a long longgggg time. May not say this often but, i love you four <3
To other friends who were once close or are still close, i want to tell you guys this:
Thank you to everyone of you for stepping into my life and making it much happier and greater than before. You guys have made me into who i am now, and even if there are/were grudges at all, i do not regret any because they brought us to where we are now. I hope we can still see each other next time and maybe say "hi" or smth hehe. Thank you once again!
Okay this is a long-winded sentimental post due to overwhelming emotions these few days (&^%^%#$(&*
Haha ok, will be posting soon again! Watch out! -winks-
