Even the strongest fall down.

11th post.

Hey guys!

Couple of updates for ya! Good news AND bad news... :) Okay here goes!

1) Good news - WE PASSED THE MUSICFEST AUDITIONS!!!! Yayyyyy! Kind of unexpected though, cause we were really nervous and shaking and all; even screwed up the bridge part :( Anyhow, we still got in!!! :D

2) Bad news - unfortunately none of the non-IPs / non-DSAs qualify to go for the Moscow trip... :( kind of saddening, but it's okay! This only means we have more time to prepare and really perfect our items for the dance concert! :) and save money also hahaha, although that's not the main point ~

Sigh... but apparently my feelings are screwed up now (a concoction of both happiness and upset and pissed off) due to something that happened. URGH. It's always like this, i always seem to be the only one excited about everything and the one to get disappointed at the end of the day... -BIG SIGH-

Anw, on a happier note, the March holidays are here!! Time to sit back, sleep in, and relax / slack a bit before school reopens again! I hope it will be more of a light and refreshing break rather than a tightly scheduled with dance break... i will literally look like =_= everyday, no joke!!!

It's also a good time to catch up with secondary friends who are really starting to get so stressed up and busy they no longer have leisure time for themselves :'( Sometimes i really miss secondary school life - at least we knew every single thing we had to do / were doing so we wouldn't live with constant "huh?"s popping up in our minds. Everything was also so familiar we felt comfortable anyhow we are. Now, things have just became too complicated and complex to comprehend fully within a short time; especially the people. Some people seem really hostile and such, but they're actually really nice people! On the contrary, some OTHER people seem really nice initially, but turn out to be just friggin' idiots who act nice and smart and all... URGH TAK BOLEH TAHAN!!!

Anw, i'm really missing the after-o-levels period also... We had all the time together and all the things we could do together. Did you regret not spending more time with me?

Cause i do. I really do miss the times we just aimlessly walk around enjoying the time with each other. Now we can barely enjoy the meagre time we have together, either because we're too tired or not in the right mood.

JC is really sucking all the chi from me. Achievement unlocked: first time falling asleep in school - during physics lecture by the most boring lecturer of the century.

NOT PROUD. I JUST GAVE IN CAUSE IT WAS TOO BORING AND POINTLESS.

Some things just cannot be recovered...

10th post.

Hey guys... Feelin' like crap now, mostly because of my lost phone which i really liked and of course, it wasn't very cheap at all. I really like it and it was so wonderful until this happened. And it's like i've lost another phone before, only last year...

People will prolly start thinking "Aiyo why she so careless? Must be that she don't take care properly la" and "walao lost so many phones alr, i've never lost even one lor" kind of thing but seriously, keep your comments to yourselves. No matter how much attention i've directed to keeping my valuables properly, they somehow end up leaving me, no kidding. I've lost more than 4 wallets, and 3 phones in my whole life. It's not that i don't take good care of them, perhaps every time it's god trying to make me learn from it?

But still, if he truly loves us and all, why must we live this so-called Life when all it does is hurt us? Why must we grow attachment for things we own? Why must separation be inevitable? Why can't we just live and never die or never leave the people around us? Why must people grow so cold and heartless? Where has kindness gone in humanity??

Sigh... Been thinking through these questions ever since i lost my phone and... i really miss it. i can't say i will forgive the person or whosoever who took it, but i'm just gonna let karma fuck them up. I really cannot stand people like this. TWO TIMES ALREADY OK. URGH. WAIT TILL IT HAPPENS TO YOU, SEE HOW HAPPY YOU'LL GET.

On a lighter note, school's been.... marginally fine for me! Had physics test and econs test, which i have only like 25% confidence in for econs!!! HAHAHA, fail much...

Anyway, i'm gonna go back on diet again! :)

Wish me luck people!