9th post.
Hey guys! The stress and everything is really starting to kick in... I can't say it's to that level where i cannot take it anymore, but it is at this level where i'm starting to feel threatened by everyone around me - classmates, scholars, friends, etc. I even feel guilty if i play a game or two during breaks between lessons... URGH WHERE IS DA FUN LOVING ME HUH.
Anw, dance competition heat is also growing stronger, so like.. i'm feeling so inferior cause all of them are so good while i'm like a noob compared to them :( I hope i will get to go to Moscow thoughhhh, i mean, it will be a really good experience and exposure for me! (given that i haven't really gotten to know anything much related to dance...)
Tutorials, tutorials, tutorials. They're like haunting me every single day... I try to put my work on like tuesdays, thursdays and weekends cause mondays wednesdays and fridays i'm practically drained of energy after dance training. Crunches for continuous 5 songs and drills ditto as well as progressions every training is seriously no joke...
Went back to zh last friday and talked to a few teachers. Felt so nostalgic... I really miss those days where we didn't have to worry so much. Not even referring to sec sch but rather when we were young and all we worried about was food and where our parents were...
It all seems too fast, this growing up thing. And who knows, in a blink of an eye we would be walking down the church aisle, watching our babies at the hospital infant care, sending our children to school, etc etc...
Why must we go through this thing called Life when all we do is get hurt?
Why must we feel attachment to something after having it?
Why must we have things we can't have and overlook things we already have?
Why do we all need love?
Why?
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